Hello and Welcome to my blog.
I am Amelie, I’m 28 and I live in England. I like cute things but I also like weird things. I collect dolls and I have a love/hate relationship with food. I’ve also been living away from home since I was 18 and living on my own for almost 2 years now. I have also been struggling with depression for essentially 10 years now.
When I lived with people it was much easier to keep tidy, because I felt rude making the public areas messy as we were all using them. It was always a different story in my bedroom.
When I am low, my motivation is practically non existent. This often leads to me crawling into bed early after watching TV. Staying in beds late in the morning on days off. Or starting many projects that I never ever finish. So tidying up and cleaning are often the last things on my mind. Things often build up then become so immense that I avoid dealing with it. Living on my own has made this situation worse.
I have 4 rooms in my Apartment. The Entry hall (with coat closet), the Bathroom, My bedroom (with one wall being the closet) and my Kitchen/Living room. This is a lot of space to get messy. And my depression means I often impulse buy in an attempt to cheer myself up. So I now have a lot of stuff and a lot of space for mess.
This is Me and My Mess.
I’ve started off 2018 on a high note. I have a good feeling about this year. I know this year I will finally be able to get on top of things. I know this because I didn’t end 2017 hating it, just thinking “hm that could have gone a little differently”. I want this year to be the year I finally stop making excuses to prevent people coming to my apartment. I want that cute place I see on Pinterest. I want to feel proud knowing I don’t have piles and piles of crap to sort out, because this year I want to sort it all out and stop letting things build up and get messy.
While I have already taken some steps to organising and tidying my apartment there is still a lot of work to be done. I plan to not hide anything. I want to be able to show people that things can look rubbish but then they can be easy to sort out. I’ve spent so long hiding how bad things are that now I will not.
The basic goal I’ve set upon myself is to at least spend 15 minutes tidying something everyday. I want to be able to share my progress, my motivations. I want to be able to learn from the internet, from the readers, from just about anything. And one thing for sure is I certainly want to own less.
So please come with me on this journey and maybe we can learn a few things together!