[I wrote this post almost 2 months ago, and looking back at it I’m happy with my choice and things have definitely got better but I shall make a follow up shortly. I want to start posting more again]
What is my Mess?
Well to start with it was the literal mess in my apartment. And just a little bit myself.
However while tidying my apartment fixed one aspect it just made it more clear how big that “little bit” actually was.
It got to a point and the decision was made for me to move back in with my mum for a while, to look after myself a little more without the worries of the day to day things, save some money and do a bit more with the money while I’m still young and free. I’d like to travel more as that was reduced once I was paying more for my living expenses. I’d like to be able to learn to drive but affording lessons was an issue let alone all the extras that come with a car. I’d like to focus more on my interests. I have so many hobbies I only halfheartedly do because I haven’t felt like I had the time or motivation to do it. For me, once I walked home, decided on my dinner, cooked my dinner, did the dishes, sorted things for the next day; more often than not after all that I’d just want to sit down and do nothing. While many people can do all of that with no problem for me it was a struggle.
I’m extremely grateful to my mum for asking me to move back in and my stepdad for being cool with it. (I mean not many parents as their 29 year old child to move back in!) I want to help how I can as being back home will most definitely really help me too.
Sometimes to sort a mess out, you need to take a step back and thing of the different ways to solve it. Some people are naturally good at keeping on top of it on a day to day basis. Some people just put things in a temporary spot to solve it later. And some times you just need to sit through and go at it from a new starting point and make sure you keep on going else things will never change.
I lived in this apartment for two years, I loved it. While I learnt more about life and living it, the less I wanted to do it.